PS I missed like four calls and 14 text messages while I was home after work. A) the world didn’t end and B) I worked for four hours with no interruptions and no anxiety. This is a win.
My life is kind of upside down right now. It’s a little overwhelming and a quite exhilarating all at once. But of course, with all kinds of change, anxiety is inevitable. I’ve taken up meditating, committed to working out more, and even attempting to go to sleep before midnight. Big things people, very big things.
I’ve definitely gotten to the point where I need major changes. And in full disclosure… I can’t disclose a lot. I know, it’s annoying. I’m definitely to the point where I’m sharing as much as I can with my life… but I’m also growing personally and professionally outside of this blog. While I absolutely love sharing my favorite clothing picks, and helping answer your questions, and even tapping into some of the lessons I’m learning as I grow up… I don’t love that I can’t share everything.
Being in college, I’m realizing, rarely had conflict of interest and all this crazy real life stuff. Real life is… real. And I’m still working on ways to share what I’ve learned, while also balancing how to appropriately live my life offline. (Fun fact: I do have a life offline!!)
I’m collecting everything that’s going on with my life in emails to my mentors and my best friends. Typically writing my blog posts and Prep Talk emails have actually served as wonderful sources of stress-relief. Writing in general and processing my thoughts is just exactly what I need. So the emails are serving that purpose as well.
Oh life, always full of surprises. So I hope you’re okay with bearing with me for a bit as I climb my way out of this weird space that I’ve found myself in.
One thing that I’ve done in addition to meditating, and exercising, and (gasp) sleeping is turn my phone on silence.
I always keep my phone on silence, but it always vibrates when I get messages and emails and even calls. I switched off the setting where now nothing happens. Absolutely nothing. And you know what? Not being interrupted my phone every ten minutes has had an oddly dramatic effect. It’s so simple, but it’s so nice.
You see, it wasn’t just the interruptions that was bothering me. I was having the worst anxiety every time my phone went off. I had convinced myself that something terrible or just nerve-wracking had occurred. That feeling of being on a roller coaster, right as your making a big drop? Every single time my phone would vibrate. The feeling of relief when it was just a text from a friend or an email from a reader was fine… but the stress of hearing that vibrate and not knowing what to expect was driving me crazy.
The anxiety hasn’t always been there, but it hasn’t always not been there.
I read this article about how iPhones are scarily a huge part of social culture in middle school. (Not being friends with someone because she can’t join group iMessages?) It’s absolutely crazy how synonymous are phones are with our lives. From the minute we wake up (my iPhone is my alarm!) to the minute we go to bed (because you just have to send that last Snapchat!), we’re connected.
Well I’m silencing mine. I only have notifications for everything other than texts and emails and phone calls turned off already. But even still… My text messages can wait. My emails can be answered on my computer when I’m at work. And phone calls are almost always telemarketers anyway.
My phone is silenced. My anxiety is silenced.
And it rocks.
Have you ever just had enough with your phone and being connected all the time?