So I feel like I’m officially in my mid-twenties. I was having this casual-turned-intense conversation with someone last week and it really got me thinking. But even then, I was kind of like “meh.” Until I realized my half-birthday was right around the corner. Then I panicked. Naturally.
I’m an old soul. Or at the very least, an old lady trapped in a 20something body. Between the grey hair, the knitting, and my desire to get a cat… I really confuse myself for an old person.
And then there’s this issue where I’m just ready to not be 23. In fact, I’d rather just fast forward my way to my thirties. Because when I’m 35, everything will be perfect… right?
So as I’m rattling off everything I want to do and be and accomplish… he made me stop. He told me that I was going to wake up one morning and that I would be 37. Well, 23 and a half apparently was close enough for the wake up call.
I really do want to accomplish a lot. But I have time. I think I had it in my mind that I have to get it all done in the next 12 years. I feel like if I sit on a couch and watch one episode of television without doing something that it’s one hour wasted. If I’m five minutes behind schedule in the morning, I think it’s five minutes wasted. It’s even so bad that if I’m not “killing two birds with one stone” that I’m not being efficient enough. How ridiculous is that?
Maybe I’m actually wasting time by thinking too much about wasting time. Sounds like a super simple concept, but it really did take my friend telling me to the pump the brakes to get it through my head. I don’t even think half-birthdays are a big deal, but here I am really actually wishing to just slow down time. And, yea… if I’m having fun and enjoying myself it’s really not a “waste” after all.
Ten Things I Enjoy Doing JUST For Fun
Four hour brunches
Dance Moms marathons
Taking baths until the water is cold
Getting lost in new neighborhoods
Refusing to get out of bed on Sunday mornings
Painting my nails
Trying on every perfume at Sephora until I get a headache
Driving just to drive
I tried making a longer list, but that’s as much as I could get. Okay, so I’m not the most fun person in the world, but it’s a start. And this is supposed to be about doing things I actually enjoy and these are things I enjoy.
Do you ever feel like you’re speeding through life and need to just stop and breathe?